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Photo taken by my good friend, James Jordan: http://www.jamesjordan.pictures

I have always loved to sing.  I just haven’t – and still don’t, completely – love singing in front of other people. To me, it has always seemed sort of an unwelcome aural assault when people are too free to start crooning at a moment’s notice.  And it’s often the case that the most confident are sometimes the most unskilled, as explained by The Dunning Kruger Effect.

I was shy growing up and never sought out musical theater, or chorus.  I would make fun of the girls my age who sang musical theater numbers at the local state fair, imitating their brassy tone and secretly wishing I was brave enough to get up there myself.  I was horribly self conscious in general as a kid, like many of us are, and never really sang except when I was sure no one else could hear me.   Some of my fondest memories growing up were riding my bike alone along a trail through the woods, singing loudly to myself.

I have played guitar since I was about 12, and was in a doom metal/sludge band in my early twenties, a fact I blame for the occasional ringing in my ears, but though I love a good sludgy distorted guitar riff, my love has always been for more traditional sorts of music, those songs with sung vocals, rather than screaming.  I was never quite in step with my peers in terms of modern music that was popular at the time, but I can find something to like within every genre of music.  I love it all, though jazz and blues are my favorites.

For the last 4 years I played in a garage band with a few friends, singing, playing bass and guitar and mandolin when needed: mostly covers, but some originals. I started writing songs when I was about 16 or so, but it has only been within the last 5 or 6 years that I have begun performing them. I’ve also worked up the courage to perform with friends who are far more accomplished musically than myself — the absolute best way to learn.

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singing at a friend’s wedding in 2012, with my wonderful friend Sarah, an accomplished singer, in a dress I made for the event.

Because I am naturally reserved and not known for my electrifying stage presence — and I love to research, I have enjoyed looking at photos of some of my favorite female musicians since I started getting up on stage.  A sense of style helps define performers and gives them confidence, just like all good clothing should.  I loved reading that Patsy Cline’s mother made many of her outfits.

From left: Dinah Washington, Linda Ronstadt, Karen Carpenter, Patsy Cline.

Here is a video that my friend James and I made last summer, from an original song of mine.  It’s far from perfect.  But if sewing has taught me anything, it’s patience – and also, just MAKE it already, who cares! The journey is always more fun than the final product, and I’m proud of this song nonetheless. Just like a sewing pattern, I look forward to re-working it soon to make it better.